I'm Back

OK, so I've been gone for a minute. Now I'm back again. RECAP: I've been in Jacksonville, FL for a conference due to my job. I must say I loved it! We saw so many artists, comedians, poets, and speakers. I love this aspect of my job because I get to see people showcase their talent and I can share that with others. It brings such peace to my heart to being joy to others. That's how I know what I'm doing is the right thing. It fits me ya know, like my favorite pair of jeans or my brand new "freakum" dress. What I do is who I am and Who I am is Free! That free spirit who may not look exactly like everyone else. I know I have a hard time accepting my naturally curly hair, I've always thought that I should straighten my hair so that it flows all down my back up until 6 years ago that's what I did. Then I decided to embrace me and just let my hair be. I still have a few insecurities about it but compliments and research has helped me love it so much more. This weekend a gentleman said, "why do you keep saying 'when its straight'?" "It doesn't matter what your hair looks like when you rocking the 'baby hair'!" SO I fell out laughing then realized he was right. My hair is a part of me and helps me express my personality and I love it. All I am simply saying is embrace the true you and know that you can do anything as long as your put forth effort and have a few chit chats with the man upstairs.~peace and blessings love~  

Mocha in my Cup

I went to this cafe downtown on Sunday. I really enjoyed myself. They have a fabulous array of beverages from soda to wine and everything in between. My drink of choice was the peppermint mocha got chocolate which is pictured! I loved! Needless to say I topped it off with the "Black and White" cake, also pictured. Delicious and good to my soul. When you want to get away or even enjoy the televised sports game of your choice, Cafe Intermezzo's is a really great spot to go! The service was awesome and the atmosphere is very chill! Two thumbs up in my book :) Peace & Blessings Loves

I have realized

Love will come when you least expect it...that's what people keep telling me and you know what I believe that. Recently I had to end a friendship of four years and I received some really great advice: "Just learn the lesson, forgive yourself, put ya big girl draws on & suck it up. It happens to all of us at some point... U can feel stupid for tonite. But tomrw, wake up, put some eye shadow on and start over. Your fam still loves u!" that's what I did. I had too. I had to press on to prove to myself that I am worth more than what this friendship had given me. For years I was doing what others wanted me to do instead of being my own woman and owning up to my triumphs as well as my failures. So today I stood tall, put on my TI Pandora station and set on a groove that gave me wings and a new spirit...I'm loving who I am and one day a man besides my father will too! So I'm not searching I'm jus accepting where I am in life and thanking God for this experience....Peace and Blessings Loves

Cool Breeze

I'm loving this weather! Finally a break from the harsh winter chill. We get to see the sun actually stay out for a change and cute spring fashions are starting to hit the streets. I've been crazy busy with things at work so I haven't had time to clear my head on here but that day is coming. A day of purging is coming to a BlogSpot near you! Peace and Blessings Loves :)

Hit that high note

Good Morning all! I have a wonderful weekend...Plenty of shopping and relaxing, which I was much needed. Now I'm in the old workjob ( yes I made up a word, lol) grooving to some R&B. Check out artist Daley! He is an R&B artist from the UK and he is the truth! Reminds me of a younger swagged out Robin Thicke... I need this is my life this morning. Music is an entity that I have always had a love for. If I could be a critic or go to listening parties as a side hustle I know I would. It speaks to my soul and I am in love with it! Growing up we always had music. My dad is a music lover and my family sings so its in my blood. Every now and then I would get out my dad's old drum and pretend that I was playing it. Although I've never had the chance to learn how to play, I've always been the baddest drum player if I do say so myself lol. See, my father used to play the drums professionally for a gospel group he was apart of in Toledo, OH in the 1970's. He had swag and passed it on to me lol! He would buy new records every week and the house was filled with the sounds of the latest tunes of that time. This is all true hearsay but it's truth in my eyes. Whenever I'm feeling some kind of way, music ha always been there for me. Music and food, (Yes food) will always be in my corner. As I get older I'm learning how to embrace the two much better. And it agrees with me! ~PEACE AND BLESSINGS LOVES~

My Halo

So the song, Halo comes on... This song just takes me there... ya know? To this heavenly sunshiny place where nothing is ever wrong and he(if he ever comes) and I can exist. We can just be and I like that. It's very peaceful and I need that. Oftentimes people just need peace, that reassurance that everything is going to be alright. That's one of the reasons why I MUST find a church here. I stay talking to God all the time. Sometimes I'll be talking out loud and someone says, "Who are you talking to?" because they obviously know its not them. My response, "Jesus.." No joke I talk to the man like all the time. He is the only reason why I have made it to where I am today. I know it was nothing but God and I am so thankful for that. I know who he is and what he is capable of. 
~ PEACE AND BLESSINGS LOVES~

State of Mind

We must make our contribution in this world. One of my beliefs is that we are put on this earth to make a difference, to improve the quality of life for ourselves and others around us. We must accept our mission and not go at it lightly for we have big shoes to fill and even longer roads to trod. We are our ancestors dreams and the tears they shed. We are they blood they shed and the words they could not speak. We are the present and the future they only hoped for. We must accept our mission and not go at it lightly. PEACEANDBLESSINGSLOVES

That Thing (Doo Wop)

So this morning as I am driving to work, Doo Wop by the infamous Lauryn Hill comes on. Immediately I begin to think how we as women can oftentimes feel unappreciated. When this feeling starts with self. We don't know how to appreciate our worth and what we have that is most precious to us. One of Ms. Hill's lyrics reads: "How you gon' win, when you ain't right within?" "Don't be a hard rock when you really are a gem"...Those two stick out to me because they simply state stay true to yourself and others will follow suite. You can catch more flies with sugar than you can with vinegar. I don't where that came from but it fits doesn't it?! lol So yea this some Doo Wop is one of my favs. I love Lauryn Hill because she stayed true to who she was and what she believed it. If we all do this, I bet we will have far less broken hearts and stronger souls for it... PEACE AND BLESSINGS LOVES

Remembering what I almost forgot

You know it's Valentines Day!! One of the most loving holidays of the year...so I'm single, which is nothing new since I've been single all my life. But this time it's different. This time I am in a whole new state, not knowing really anyone except those I work with and a few others who are far away. So I have to depend on myself. Just solely me lol. So you know what I did, I lit candles in my garden tub and relaxed. Yes RELAXED! I loved it! I took time to remember who I was and what I stand for...I remembered my worth all in one relaxing lavender and chamomile bath...the joys of #singleawarenessday...you should take a bath too and remember your worth ;) PEACE AND BLESSINGS LOVES

Short Story for all!!

As promised here's one short story...Very short I might add but I would love to know what you think...This is just a snippet...PEACE AND BLESSINGS LOVES

He sits and listens to the rhythm of my breathing. Nothing is said. Silence. Breathe in and out, in and out, in and out. Still…nothing. I wonder how long he is going to keep this up. The silent treatment. Although we are not angry with each other, we are content with where the past has brought us. This present. We are still uncertain of our future. I never loved a man like this. I never wanted to give someone my all before. Until I met him. He is the reason why I breathe in and out. I’ve never felt so alive until he told me how much I meant to him and that he couldn’t live without me. He couldn’t sleep without me and hated to eat without me, I guess that’s why I always cook. J Three years, it’s been. Three years of unpleasantness, silent treatments, enjoyment and crying on the back porch steps. Three years of my tears mixing with his fears of will this last. Three years of being patient, and not getting the love back Three years of no calls, no shows, no trips, no visits, no emotions, no feelings; three years of emptiness, yet an abundance of completeness.

                It’s coming up on our four year anniversary I have the slightest clue what I’m going to get him. This man has everything including my love. I know that’s enough. No gift can amount to what my love means to him. He appreciates me. He loves to love me. He takes care of me. And I the same for him. Or at least that’s what I keep telling myself. But things are different now. No more pillow talks at night and early morning smiles. No more I love you’s just because flowers and “its ok, baby, I’ll cook you go take a bath and relax.” No it’s I love you, only when I need something. No its’ late night phone calls and creeping out of bed when he thinks I’m asleep.

My friends keep telling me it’s my imagination. That he loves me, I’m just starting to notice these things because I have that itch and anything catches my attention. “That ‘itch’ I ask them. You damn right I have that itch, it’s been three years and still no ring, still no marital commitment. Hell we’ve been shacking for two! I’m tired of doing wife duties and not having the title or respect.”

“No ‘respect’ they say, Lisa, Thad gives you all the respect you deserve and then some. I can’t believe you would say that.”

“ Oh you can’t well you tell me if getting phone calls at 3 in the morning and taking them in the kitchen is a form of respect. When I ask who was that and why they are calling so late, he say’s wrong number, or Oh, baby that was Ryan, he had a question about spreadsheets at work.”

 Yea right like that’s respect and like that’s love.

But in my heart, I know Thad loves me. He always has. I remember when we met. I had just finished having lunch with my girls at the usual spot, Some of This. Man we love that spot. Best sandwich and pastry shop in the south. Anyway, we had gone shopping earlier that day to look for dresses to wear to Jay, my friend’s bridal shower, when she suggested we stop and get a bite to eat. As I said my goodbyes and walked to the car, there he was. Directly in my path chopping it up with his boys; he had to notice my glance even though I tried to play coy. So I said hello and kept stepping. All of a sudden I felt a faint tug on my arm and it was him. He introduced himself and walked me to my car. During this small exchange of words, he managed to squeeze my number out of me, although it didn’t take much.

Thaddeus Elijah Cole. 27. Architect. Born and raised in California. Been a resident of Georgia for about 5 years. 6’2”. Broad Shoulders. Caramel Complexion. One dimple on the left side. Dark chocolate eyes and best of all SINGLE, unattached.

My Journey Here

I often wondered why I was sent to the place I am today. There are so many things I have wanted to say in my life but haven't been able to express any of it. Recently I started writing a book, with no title I might add, but its about life and how quickly it can be turned upside down with the blink of an eye. What better way to express myself than by showing you guys my latest installments here on PEACEANDBLESSINGSLOVES... If you know me then you know from time to time I always end my facebook statuses with this phrase. It's just me. It is the essence of who I am and what I would like to become...So you guys stay tuned as I take you on this journey called me ;) PEACE AND BLESSINGS LOVES